We Will Worship While Weeping

Those who know our family intimately know how much music, specifically worship is a part of the lifeblood in our family. It has become a part of our family culture to sing with all our being as we drive around town–yes we look like a CRAZY car with nine people praising the Lord, but it’s a God-glorifying crazy. On my most days, you could walk into our home filled with music either blasting while we work and dance, or faintly gracing the ambiance with a peace that is inspired by songs of praise.

But when tragedy, trial, or turmoil hits, what then?

Most of you are aware of our recent loss through a miscarriage at 3 months, but what many might not know is of the many other life tragedies, struggles, and even spiritual attacks we have endured and fought over the last eighteen years. There are too many to write of here. My point is, we are not new to trials or suffering and through it all, we have chosen to praise our Father in Heaven for keeping us in His hands. Yes, it is a CHOICE. We have chosen to look for God, lean into Him, trusting Him, and seeking Him, and in seeking Him we experience His presence powerfully.

Even though it is a choice to give thanks and worship, for me, I can’t imagine living this life any other way. It has become my second nature to worship Him both in seasons of blessings and in the valley.

I have found, through this past couple of years, there have been moments when I just don’t have the words to say to God. It’s in those times I choose to lead my heart to honor Him.

Sometimes the best way to lead your heart is by allowing other’s to speak into your life, to pray for you, and other times it can be as simple as turning on the Christian radio station or your worship playlist.

For those of you who have read Redeeming Childbirth: Experiencing His Presence in Pregnancy, Labor, Birth, and Beyond, you know of my chapter entitled The Ultra-Sound of Worship, which is also a blog post here. This chapter spurred on a movement of women proactively creating their own worshipful playlists specifically for labor and birth.